Could I get any busier?!

Well, school is back in session and what I used to call a life has now been consumed into a whirlwind of chaos. I am trying to keep motivated with working out, though the same thing is happening that happens every semester. I am so busy, that working out is the first thing to go. I try not to do that, and treat working out as another of my priorities, but it doesn't usually work out that way. So, I think it is important for me to keep blogging on here, because I have to admit out loud that I am putting off working out, which in turn makes me feel guilty, and alas, motivated. So, while I started this blog with the intention of comlpaining about how I don't have time to work out, I now feel like I need to since I have made this weight loss goal for myself. I really don't want to give up when time gets tight or things get hard.

On another note, I feel really good about controlling my eating. I have made a few bad food choices, but I have tried to counteract those bad choices with good ones. For example, today I brought an apple to school for a snack, with the intentions of eating it during lunchtime to curb my hunger until I could get my hands on a salad or something. But I jsut felt the overwhelming need for something filling, so I got a fried chicken sandwich instead. The good thing is that it was all I got for lunch. I skipped fries or chips and ate a lowfat granola bar later on for a snack. I guess I should have eaten the apple at some point, but I've been really good all week, so I figured it wouldn't hurt to ship the apple one day. I've been portioning during dinner, and I think thats helping too. I am stopping eating when I am full. I feel more in control! hooray.

My goals this week are drink more water, work out at least 4 times, and not eat any fried foods (other than that sandwhich from today, oops)

Feeling ill

Well, its been a few weeks since I've posted. Lets see, I have worked out probably 3 times a week. I haven't been eating the best I can. I am trying to be more conscious of what I'm putting in my mouth, but it doesn't always stop me from eating pizza (like I did yesterday...) But I am working on eating a lot more fruit, and drinking more water. Me and Tim are sick this week, so I haven't worked out the past few days, but I'm going to try to get out and at least take a walk tonight. Today I had a bowl of cereal, a glass or orange juice, half a can of tuna and crackers, a bowl of chicken noodle soup, and a pudding cup. So far so good I think. Now I need to drink a bunch of water to rid myself of this sickness.

Beer

I have done so-so today. I had a small bowl of Raisin Bran this morning with a banana. For lunch I had limited options since I was on my way to work. The only thing on the way is a Wendy's or a Fat Mo's...So, I opted for the place that didn't have the word "fat" in it. At Wendy's, I was bad and got a Jr. Cheeseburger Duluxe and a baked potato, but I was good because I threw away about 1/4 of the sandwich and didn't completely eat the potato. I also got a mandarin orange cup. I am allowing myself 1 non-water drink a day, and today it was Gatorade since I was working at the dairy out in the 105 degree heat. I was RAVENOUS when I got home, and Tim had spaghetti cooked. MMM...so, I ate 3 small pieces of cantelope first, which I was hoping would make me eat less spaghetti. Well, I probably did eat less than I normally would, but I still ate too much. I could have been okay with significantly less. Live and learn. I just considered working at the dairy today to be a workout since it is unbelievably tough work. Tomorrow I am going to get up in the morning and workout before Tim's school's annual new student picnic. I wonder if I can get through the picnic without overeating...

One thing I am worried about is we are going out tomorrow night after the football game. I would like to drink, and I am too cheap to buy liquor which would probably be less fattening. I don't know what to do. Maybe to make myself feel better I can eat very healthy all day.

I could do better tomorrow then I did today. Ok, I need to remember that tomorrow!

Run Fatty Run!

The inspiration for the title of today's blog is the way I felt today at the gym. Yes, I went to the gym. Horray, one day down. A lifetime to go!

Seriously though, it felt good to get some blood running through my veins. What didn't feel good was getting on the scale to see what my "starting weight" it for this whole weight loss thing. I stared at the scale in disbelief. I did the typical, "Well, the scale must be off". But ohhh no. No, it wasn't. I thought I was probably overshooting it when I guessed my weight in the last blog at 180 lbs. No...it said...186 lbs!! WHAT?! A million things ran through my head. Like, it must be because I drank so much water today, or maybe the sweat is adding weight. 6+ lbs of weight though?! No...I didn't drink enough water to add 6 lbs today.

Well, I guess that is the sad reality of being suseptible to gaining weight. It creeps up on you and before you know it, you've gained a million pounds without even trying (I wish I needed to try).

So, when I got home, I had Tim take a few "BEFORE" pictures of me so I can try to have some inspiration. Wow...talk about inspiration! My husband IS a good man if he can think this big ass is sexy! lol. So here they are...

Mmmm...cute huh?

Ok, so I set a goal. My goal is to be down to 165 lbs by Halloween. Thats roughly 20 lbs. I'm not sure if thats healthy or realistic or not. I mean 10 lbs a month is a lot I think. But if I shoot high, hopefully I land somewhere around there. I have about 2 months to get there.

So at the gym today I got on the boring elliptical for 20 minutes and the treadmill for 20 minutes. Then I lifted 10 lb weights 20 times on each arm, did 20 lunges on each leg, and did 40 crunches. I was there roughly 45 minutes so I consider it a good workout. My eating today was ok. Here is what I had:

Breakfast:

-banana

-1 cup Honey Bunches of Oats with 1 cup milk

-coffee with powdered creamer and 1 Sweet & lo

Lunch:

-2 small tacos with only a little sour cream (and I LOVE sour cream) with a few tortilla chips with salsa
-water

Dinner:

-small piece of chicken lasagna

-dinner roll (I could have done without it)

-green beans (no butter)

-about 3 spoons of mashed potatoes

-orange juice

Snack:

-fruit smoothie (no sugar)

-3 crackers and tuna

Ok, so thats all for now! Good luck to me for tomorrow. I'm gonna go work out in the morning around 9. Horray!

Getting Started

Well, I'm making another sad attempt to losing some ton-age by starting a blog. I'm hoping that by making myself write every day, I can at least remind myself of what I SHOULD be doing (i.e working out, eating right). My problem is that I have a bursts of motivation that fizzle off as fast as they come. So, a little consistency wouldn't hurt by starting a blog that I actually stick with.

Just in case anyone happens to run across this, I'll explain myself...

I am 21, and weight roughly 180 lbs (size 14). I just got married 2 months ago to the man I have been with since I was 14. At my thinnest, (around 15 or 16 yrs old) I was ~130 lbs (size 7-8). So, needless to say, my husband has been around when I looked a lot better. It doesn't help that when we started dating, Tim was 6'1 and a very thin, 150 lbs. But after years of hard work, he is up to 200+ lbs of muscle. He, however, is the most loving and understanding man. He has never made me feel bad about myself. If anything, he has only encouraged me when he knows I am going through one of my "fat weeks" and have decided "I've finally had enough and I'm going to stick with this workout plan!" (yeah, right...)

My weakness is SWEETS, hands down. There is no mystery to the reason I have gained weight. My teenage "growth spurts" ended, and I kept on eating like I had been and not working out consistently. I tried Weight Watchers last year, and it was wonderful....until I lost interest.

I figure that I should try Weight Watchers again, but I can't afford it. So, I have been thinking maybe I can just follow the plan and not go to the meetings. But the whole motivation behind the program is so you don't look like an idiot when you go to get weighed in and you haven't lost a pound. So, I don't know...

I really don't mind working out if I feel like I am getting somewhere. Most of the time I give up before I have lost any weight, so I never get on a consistent workout plan. I have tried playing tennis with Tim the past couple weeks and it has been really fun. But it is just too damn HOT here to be working out outside (105 degrees). I have a gym membership, but I get soooo bored on the elliptical and treadmill. I would swim, but I hate getting wet, lol.

As far as my eating habits are concerned, like I said, I am a sweet addict. I find myself craving chocolate cake as soon as I wake up in the morning. Seriously. I love all good food just like the next person, but I am so used to eating a lot that I don''t feel full when I should. I know I need to get into a portioning habit. Portioning is SO HARD when you are hungry. Maybe eating 5 small meals a day would help. I would have to figure out how that would coordinate with Tim since we cook dinner together each night. Thats another thing. He can eat, and eat, and eat. So, we eat fatty, protein rich food. How can I convince him that a nice grilled chicken salad will be enough for dinner tonight?

As yuo can see, much of the reason I have not actually lost any weight is because I have a truck load of excuses. When i get home from vacation, I am going to decide on an eating plan, whether it is WW, or portioning control, or low carb, or whatever. But that is my next goal. That and more water. And going for a job. Short term goals are good.