Getting Started

Well, I'm making another sad attempt to losing some ton-age by starting a blog. I'm hoping that by making myself write every day, I can at least remind myself of what I SHOULD be doing (i.e working out, eating right). My problem is that I have a bursts of motivation that fizzle off as fast as they come. So, a little consistency wouldn't hurt by starting a blog that I actually stick with.

Just in case anyone happens to run across this, I'll explain myself...

I am 21, and weight roughly 180 lbs (size 14). I just got married 2 months ago to the man I have been with since I was 14. At my thinnest, (around 15 or 16 yrs old) I was ~130 lbs (size 7-8). So, needless to say, my husband has been around when I looked a lot better. It doesn't help that when we started dating, Tim was 6'1 and a very thin, 150 lbs. But after years of hard work, he is up to 200+ lbs of muscle. He, however, is the most loving and understanding man. He has never made me feel bad about myself. If anything, he has only encouraged me when he knows I am going through one of my "fat weeks" and have decided "I've finally had enough and I'm going to stick with this workout plan!" (yeah, right...)

My weakness is SWEETS, hands down. There is no mystery to the reason I have gained weight. My teenage "growth spurts" ended, and I kept on eating like I had been and not working out consistently. I tried Weight Watchers last year, and it was wonderful....until I lost interest.

I figure that I should try Weight Watchers again, but I can't afford it. So, I have been thinking maybe I can just follow the plan and not go to the meetings. But the whole motivation behind the program is so you don't look like an idiot when you go to get weighed in and you haven't lost a pound. So, I don't know...

I really don't mind working out if I feel like I am getting somewhere. Most of the time I give up before I have lost any weight, so I never get on a consistent workout plan. I have tried playing tennis with Tim the past couple weeks and it has been really fun. But it is just too damn HOT here to be working out outside (105 degrees). I have a gym membership, but I get soooo bored on the elliptical and treadmill. I would swim, but I hate getting wet, lol.

As far as my eating habits are concerned, like I said, I am a sweet addict. I find myself craving chocolate cake as soon as I wake up in the morning. Seriously. I love all good food just like the next person, but I am so used to eating a lot that I don''t feel full when I should. I know I need to get into a portioning habit. Portioning is SO HARD when you are hungry. Maybe eating 5 small meals a day would help. I would have to figure out how that would coordinate with Tim since we cook dinner together each night. Thats another thing. He can eat, and eat, and eat. So, we eat fatty, protein rich food. How can I convince him that a nice grilled chicken salad will be enough for dinner tonight?

As yuo can see, much of the reason I have not actually lost any weight is because I have a truck load of excuses. When i get home from vacation, I am going to decide on an eating plan, whether it is WW, or portioning control, or low carb, or whatever. But that is my next goal. That and more water. And going for a job. Short term goals are good.